you guuuyssss! today marks 6 months since my car accident (if you’re just joining, more details here) and i can’t even tell you what that means to me! to have such a potentially near death experience and then have to deal with the concussion and further …issues? i dont know … afterwards, it was a wild ride.
i’m a total cliche too when it comes to this experience too. i really feel like its so much easier to handle different situations that may have really bugged me before. now when something comes my way that is negative and not in my control, it’s easy to say “it is what it is, i can totally handle this” and carry on to the next thing. when i find myself complaining about something i’ll say to myself “ummmm you’re healthy and alive and have all your needs taken care of, it’s really fine that the train is running slowly, or that your order is a little wrong, these jeans no longer fit because you eat too many donuts or xyz”. NOTHING is so bad.
after my accident, my hands weren’t working properly. we didnt know (me + the doctors) if they would go back to fully functioning properly and it was really freaky, paired with the fact that we hadn’t ruled out brain surgery quite yet. to wake up in the morning knowing i don’t have any headaches, pain, confusion, etc and that my body is fully functioning as it should (except my poor liver lol) makes me feel extremely lucky pretty much every single day.
i’ve definitely lost in life. i’ve lost things, i’ve lost money, i’ve lost jobs, i’ve lost many a tee-ball game in my youth. some insight i’ve gained from these past 6 months and from that night is that no matter what you lose, there are tunnels with light at the end of them, silver linings in clouds, lemonade to be made from lemons and a sea with plenty of fish (not that’s not an ad for the dating site lol). my point is, things get better.
so next time you are down and out and hard on yourself, i completely get it and understand and continue to feel the same way myself. but please also know that what you have, someone else may be praying for. i am overwhelmingly thankful i moved to the front of that car, an action i never would have ever done normally. and to show my thankfulness to God, or the universe or the act of random circumstance, i’ll continue to choose my battles, find positivity in every day and enjoy each and every donut i have 🙂